My Walk Through the Pluto-Sun Conjunction
Alright, let’s talk about that transit – Pluto sitting right on top of my natal Sun. People throw around words like ‘transformation,’ but living through it? That’s a whole different story. It wasn’t like a switch flipped overnight. It was slow. Real slow at first.
I remember starting to feel… restless. Like the clothes I was wearing didn’t fit right anymore, but the clothes were my life, you know? My job, some relationships, even how I saw myself. Things I used to be proud of, or things that defined me, started feeling hollow. There was this nagging feeling deep down that something wasn’t right, but I couldn’t put my finger on it.
Then things started getting real. It wasn’t gentle nudges anymore. It felt more like life was taking a wrecking ball to the structures I’d built. There were power struggles, man. At work, felt like I was constantly hitting a wall, dealing with people trying to undermine me, or maybe I was just seeing the dynamics for what they really were for the first time. Stuff I used to tolerate suddenly became unbearable.
It wasn’t just external, either. Inside? Felt like a battleground. All the stuff I’d buried, ignored, didn’t want to look at – Pluto dragged it out into the sunlight. My ego took a massive beating. I had to face some hard truths about myself, my motivations, my darker side. It was uncomfortable, seriously humbling.
- Losing things I thought were important.
- Facing parts of myself I didn’t like.
- Feeling powerless sometimes, then realizing where my real power was.
- Having to let go of old identities.
Digging Deep and Rebuilding
There were times I felt completely stripped bare. Like everything I thought I was had burned away. And honestly? It was terrifying. You’re standing there in the ashes, wondering what the hell comes next. But that’s where the rebuilding started. It wasn’t about putting the old pieces back together. It was about finding new materials, stronger foundations.
I started questioning everything. What did I actually want? Not what others expected, not what I thought I should want. What truly mattered to me? It forced me to get authentic, brutally honest with myself. I had to shed layers of conditioning, old beliefs that weren’t serving me anymore.
This process meant making some tough choices. Walking away from situations and people that drained my energy or didn’t align with this emerging sense of self. It wasn’t easy, lots of fear, lots of doubt. But every time I chose based on that deeper truth, things started to shift, slowly.
Where I Landed (For Now)
Looking back now that the conjunction is separating? Wow. It was intense. Like going through fire. But I wouldn’t trade it. The person I was before that transit simply doesn’t exist anymore. Not in a bad way. It’s like I was reforged.
There’s a sense of inner strength I didn’t have before. A quiet confidence that comes from having faced your own shadows and survived. My priorities are completely different. My B.S. detector is finely tuned now. I feel more… solid. More myself, whatever that really means. It’s less about outward achievement and more about inner alignment.
So yeah, Pluto conjunct Sun. It’s not a walk in the park. It demands you dig deep, face the darkness, and let go of who you thought you were. But if you lean into it, do the work? You come out the other side fundamentally changed, and maybe, just maybe, more truly yourself than ever before. It’s a journey, for sure.
